hehe... Your name... Mrs Ho...
hehe... let the whole world knows tat u r Mrs Ho... haha... hehe...

Today I reached tutorial class very early. 8.00am. hahahaha... I'm the first girl and the 3rd earliest person. =P

Had a maths quiz today. Frankly speaking, I wasn't VERY prepared for it. Coz I've some doubts about the chapter Vectors (about what equation of planes blah blah blah). Luckily DETERMINANTS was tested! hahahaha!!! That's my favourite chapter man! So fun! Chin Jie and Charmaine was sitting next to me. We're like, Shit... will vectors be tested? oh man! hahaha..

Chin Jie and I were discussing vectors problems early in the morning. Poor him. Coz I was the one who posed all the WHYS. I think he must be having a headache by the end of the day. So sorry CJ. Didn't mean it. Really. =P

But the physics tutorial was HELL! I don't even catch any ball of what the tutor is talking about. Damn. Fluid Mechanics used to be my forte and favourite in college. But now... Damn. In addition, I'll be having a Physics CA on Week 7. So is Materials Science. Not to forget there's still a Religion and Sociology essay to be written on that WEEK 7!!! Aaaahhhhhhh!!! SAVE MEEEE!!

I better buck up man. I'm really trying not to TA BAO. haiz... Sad life I'm living... Feel like giving up.

Samantha, if you're reading this, thanks for the smooch. Love it. Hope I don't get pimples tomorrow. =P

An excellent day to begin with but was ruined by a bitch. Fuck.

HEADLINES : Singapore Badminton Player, Ronald Susilo lost to Thailand #@%*)#%#!_)% in a disappointing 15-10 and 15-1 match on Aug 18, 7.00pm.

Just came back from NTU. Had my lunch today during the 1 hour break at 10.30 am before my last tutorial for the day, Maths tutorial comences. Me and my group of friends went for our meal at canteen 3. 4 girls and more than 5 guys. Can't be bothered to keep count. I know I'm asking for death penalty to be sentenced to me. But I can't resist the Western food canteen 3 is selling. It's sooooo tempting!! My mouth just practically watered! The serving's generous. And most importantly, the chicken chop gravy is absolutely heavenly! HHHMMMM!!!! YUM YUM! I can still taste it...

Right now, I'm munching on an apple after popping my medicine. Taste like rubber. I've lost weight during that 2 days which I fell ill. 3 kg to be specific. I can't even climb the stairs without panting. It's so difficult to breathe. I guess that because of the flu bug. Munching on the apple seems so tiring for my mouth. Luckily the chicken chop was tender enough. Gonna nap for awhile before starting my Maths revision for next Wednesday MINI QUIZ (aka class test). I've no idea what the tutor was talking about today. As usual, he's just teaching DIRECTLY from the book. HOWEVER, I ain't gonna give up on my favourite subject just like that. I'LL JUST HAVE TO DEPEND ON MY OWN AND I'LL MAKE IT!

I feel like a bird with clipped wings, in a cage. I've been staying at home since saturday night. My boyfriend's is now out with his friend Candy, getting a shirt for his graduation day on this upcoming thursday. I'm sooooo BORED!!!!

I didn't managed to get to school in the end. The fever came back this morning about 3-4am. I couldn't sleep well. My throat hurts, my body and bones are aching, my eyelids are fiery hot. Damn. It's a fucking horrible feeling I'm undergoing now. I'm really in a lousy mood. Mommy's gone to work, Gor Gor has gone to school, Papa went out. I'm stuck alone in the house. My boyfriend's gone to work. I'm really feeling damn low. Curse that person who infected me with the bloody virus. Ended me up in such a horrible situation.

I'm feeling bored. I'll study a little after this blog. Eat my medicine and wait for the drowsiness effect to take me over. Better get some studying done. I've missed out many lectures today. I don't want to 'ta bao' my modules, you know?

I'll go study my favourite subject later. MATHS!!! If my friends were to read this, they're bound to scream at me. Hahahahaha... Coz 2 years ago, when I was hospitalised for dengue fever, they came to visit me and found me studying maths in the hospital room! hahaha.... they kick such a ruckus, fussing over me. In the end, they gave up fighting with me over the maths book, despite me being bed-ridden. No one can snatch my maths book. NO ONE. I've gone crazy. Too much medicine...

I'm sick!! Waaaahhhh.... My Sunday just flew past with me sleeping and popping pills. sad sad. :(
I feel rotten. I feel horrible. I feel UGLY! I hate being sick... I can't even attend my boyfriend's aikido performance today. So down today. I feel like brawling my heart out. I think I'm undergoing some kind of emotional unstability.

My boyfriend bought me Jay Chou's latest album to cheer me up after his aikido training. It did cheer me up a little. I've been nagging at him to buy it for me but he always give me the same answer. NO. I know he's trying to make me feel better. I'll be having lectures tomorrow 8.30am. It means that I've to wake up at 6.00am. Damn. I'm beginning to dread everyday of my life...

I'm finally home! Just came back from watching the movie, starring Tom Cruise, The Collateral. I'ts a LOUSY show! Please people, don't watch it! It has a lousy storyline and I HATE TOM CRUISE! The reason why I watched the movie was because my boyfriend's employer (HSBC) had this 'outing' for it's staff, which sponsers free movie tickets and popcorn and drink. Cheapo. That I know. But the MAIN REASON why I went is because of my boyfriend. I wanted to spend more time. In addition, we're offered free stuff, so why not!?

I really miss my boyfriend... Even though it's like only 20 mins since he left me (he sent me home). Oh man... It's gonna be difficult for me to be away from him for one whole day tomorrow! I can only meet him up on Saturday.

My boyfriend means the world to me. Though we OFTEN quarrel, I do love him. He's always trying his best to be there for me, when I need him, even when I don't need him! He's always there to protect me. My guardian angel. My feelings are defintely more than what words can describe. But the problem is me. I don't often express my love that publicly. I'll try to though. For him, I'm willing to forgo, sacrifice everything that I have. He's THE ONLY ONE for me.

I just finished watching Singapore Idol, actually, I just wanted to watch the Banana Man part. hahaha... He's sooo funny! Corny funny. I'm amazed that the judges even allow him to participate with the stupid mask on. Come to think of it, I really admire those participants. They really dare to summon their courage to apply for the competition.

I've many ambitions since young. I wanted to be an air-stewardess, doctor, lawyer, engineer, pianist, and the most absurd ambition so far was to be the Prime Minister of Singapore! hahaha..
I know that's STUPID like what my boyfriend always call me, Stupid! I've been thinking of what I'll do after my university days. There're 2 options. Firstly, which is to apply for the position of being an air-stewardess, work for 2-3 years to repay my university loan. Or secondly, follow my boyfriend to Australia, work there while he study in the university. I'll just leave the decision-making in the later part of the 3-4 years.

I wanted to be a singer when I was young. But I didn't dare to take part in the competition. So I really applaud those contestants who're brave enough to register themselves for the competition. Mommy asked me why I didn't take part. Firstly, I'm not gonna kill myself by queuing so long for the registration! Secondly, I believe fame will only last for some period of time. After that, you'll still have to depend on your skill. So practical's the best. GET A JOB!

Get a good job = Get a good certificate = study hard = enough rest = sleep NOW!

ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

Just finished studying. Gonna sleep soon. Exhausted. Woke up at 8+ this morning. Haven't rested since then. Gotta wake up early tomorrow. Tutorial lessons starts at 9.30am but I've to leave home early in order to avoid the fucking long queue to board the fucking bus. Tomorrow's gonna be a fucking shitty day. Damn it. I think I'm suffering from PMS (pre-menstrual syndrome) But I just had my time of the month last week! Alright. It's the TERRIBLE MOOD SWINGS OF MINE! At least there's something I can hope for tomorrow, so that it won't be such a fucking day afterall. I get to meet my boyfriend tomorrow! Gonna sleep now. Gotta wake up fucking early tomorrow. Unless you're my boyfriend, I dun wanna entertain anyone. Fuck off!

MORNING EVERYONE! I guessed you guys should know the reason why I'm grinning from ear to ear though it's a school day today after a LONG holiday. *groans* COZ MY BOYFRIEND WROTE ME AN ENTRY!!! WOoooo!!! Alright for those who thinks it's not a BIG DEAL about a boyfriend writing an entry to his girlfriend's blog, IT IS A HUMONGEOUS DEAL to me as he don't have much time to update his blog much less adequate sleep. SO FUCK OFF THOSE UGLY COMMENTS POPPING UP IN YOUR HEAD!!! No one can spoil my mood today! NO ONE!

Darling.... Sorry to spoil your blog wif my entry.... haha... well... i always irritate you... but one thing for sure... i really really love u much more than what u can imagine of....

Happy National Day... I'm juz about to call you after this... Wanna hear a bitmore of your voice... Muackz...

Alright. I'm updating my thursday and friday events on a saturday! OKIE! I know I'm a hopeless freak who always procrastinate stuff! Ya don't have to tell me that, coz I know that myself! Even though it's only 2 days of MIA, much events have happened during that period.

Thursday: I had a Physics makeup lecture from 7.30-8.30 pm. I had a 3 hour break before the Physics lecture commence. So I hid myself in the library to study and... SLEEP! Hahaha... Well, Razak was there with me. He and his friend were there. He taught me Physics as usual. I bombed him with questions until he can't answer and was befounded! Hahaha... Yeah... Then he exclaimed, 'YA HOR! HOW COME CANNOT! WHY NO ONE THINK OF THIS METHOD BEFORE!? Waahhh!!! Assoc Prof Chan!' That guy is a total crap man! We joked around, well, he tried to tickle me. But I didn't allow him coz I just know him and I won't allow any other guy to touch me except my bf, my bro n my dad. Yeah... After the Physics lecture, I rushed down to Boon Lay bus interchange to meet my Hubby. Then we had dinner at Jurong Point foodcourt.
After that we headed home as it was late. During the train-ride, he tried to tickle me. At that moment, I blurted out, ' Don't tickle me like what Razak tried to!' At that split instant, his facial expression and mood change a 360 degree. We had a argument in the train. Haiz... maybe he's stressed out at work, and maybe I was tired too. It was quite a heated argument... When I reached home, it was close to 12 midnight...

Friday: Today I had a Religion and Social Life makeup lecture. After that I went out with Cheah Liang for dinner with his friends at Suntec City. I was EXTREMELY tired. I woke up at 6 this morning coz I've a laboratory lesson at 8.30 am. And I had to wait for 6.30 pm for the makeup lecture to end. I rushed down to City Hall interchange to meet Cheah Liang. It seems that ever since I entered University, I'm always rushing here and there. Even for lectures and tutorials. I find that I don't have much time even for myself! The dinner was ok. But I had not much appetite. Don't really know why. Maybe it's because of the lethargy. After that my brother sent me a message to tell me to go home before it gets too late. On the way home, we quarrelled again! I don't know how come we're always arguing and quarrelling. It's so different from other relationships, where the couples are so peaceful. He said that I've changed ever since I went to the university. He told me to think and reflect upon my actions and conversations I've with him. Have I really changed that much? Somehow I don't think so except that I'm always in the rush. The university life is always on the go. If I don't keep along with the flow, I'll be forever behind, and the catching up will be tough. Everynight I reach home, I'll be so brain-dead and physically-stroked. He flared up when I told him I've got no interest to talk to him about such matters. He punched the pillars below my block, until his knuckles bled and swelled. My heart aches when I see him in such temper. At that moment, I really felt like standing in front of the pillar and hit me instead so that his knuckles won't be injured. He accused that I'm the one who's not loving him, and not the other way round. I wanted to slap his face. But I'm so fucking tired and I'm not feeling well, I really don't wish to argue or reason with him for whatever I say, he won't listen and accuse me even more. I feel that by keeping my mouth shut and allow him to scream and hurl accusations at me is the best way to end the 'conversation'. I did manged to get home, suprisingly. When he reached home, we talked for awhile before I hang up and drifted to sleep.

Saturday: Here I'm updating my 2 days incidents and blasting my speakers off. I'm gonna start my self-study soon, right after this blog. It really is pathetic that I've to spend my holiday on monday to study. But what choice do I have? Exams are drawing near. Better to start now than late. I'm gonna meet my boyfriend later. So I've to do some studying. Be a responsible student.

Adios

I don't know how to start today... I'm feeling down. Right. I got to meet my tutorial class today. Well, it's not so bad afterall. Except that I nearly lost my mobile today. Razak and I were supposed to meet outside the main lecture hall (MLT) to go to the tutorial room today. Who's Razak? Oh. He's my new friend. VERY nice guy. I met him at the Maths lecture. He was sitting next to me. After that we met again in Religion and Social Life lecture. And he's the same tutorial class as me! What a coincidence! This guy is a total funny freak! His face is soooo comical! But he's smart. Damn smart. He studied in Raffles Institute, went to Anglo Chinese Junior College. Wow! He taught me Physics (my worst subject) and I taught him Maths in exchange. ^0^v

Well, as I was saying, Razak and I went to the tutorial class together. It was only after the physics lecture that I realised that my mobile was not in my bag! I began to panic. Razak then accompanied me to where we last sat outside the lecture hall, to check if the mobile is still around, though the chances are very low. As expected, it wasn't there. My mood just went a roller-coaster dive. I wanted to cry... Razak knew how I felt. He kept pacifying me. He even lent me his phone to call my phone. But no one answer the phone. Well, who in the earth will be so smart to answer someone's else call?!?! He even sent a message to my phone, directing the person who's holding onto my phone, that the phone means a lot to me. It does! Because of my boyfriend's name tag is hanged on my phone, and the tag isn't easy to find! That's my main concern! Razak tried to cheer me up, telling me jokes and making fun at himself at others so I can smile.

Before Maths tutorial started, I tried calling my mobile again. FINALLY someone answered the call! I told the person that I lost my mobile, and asked her where's her location. When Razak overheard that I finally managed to get in contact with the finder, he was so happy for me! Oh man! I wanted to give that guy a BIG HUG! I'm soooo damn relieved! =)

Well, Razak and I then rushed to meet the girl who took my phone. My mood really changed AGAIN! hahaha... Razak couldn't help teasing me about it. Every now and then, he'll be reminding me, 'Remember to keep your mobile.' hahaha... that guy!

When the class knew that I managed to find my mobile, they said, 'OK! Write down your mobile number NOW! the phone ain't lost anymore!' hahaha... I'm beginning to like my class.

Well, besides the lost and found incident, I'm down because I didn't get to meet my boyfriend today for lunch. ~~~>.<~~~ My class ended today at 12.30pm today. I thought I can meet him for lunch. But he told me he's busy with work. ~~~>.<~~~ I understand, but I just can't help feeling rejected... I think I'll have to adjust myself to the environment now. I'll have to adapt that I can't spend as much time with him as possible. Because each of us are too busy with our own stuff. Me and my tertiary education is very much time-exhausting. So is his work and his aikido training. Just have to learn how to get use to the distance we're facing now... ~~~>.<~~~
I guess I'll go have a rest now. I've to start studying later when I wake up from my nap...

Alrighty! Good morning to everyone reading this. I'm writing my blog for yesterday. Such a procrastinar... Thanks! I'm soooo shagged last night, couldn't even understand what I'm reading from my notes. [=.=]''' REALLY have no idea that university life can be soooooo exhausting. BUT! I think the exhaustion steams from all the walking around. Guess that's why I don't see much obese people around in NTU. In addition, I think my sense of direction is getting better each day! At least I'm not those SUA KUS aka KU KUS bringing out their map as they make their way to their destination! hahaha.... I'm just a freshman like them. BUT I was asked for directions by them! >.<''' My prescriped elective, Religion and Social Science lecturer is a *$_)#&)#_! Damn... I have no idea how I'm gonna scrap through this module. I'll have to 'balance brought down' for this module throughout my 4 years. shit! Not to include my Life Science Module! Ok... Here's the headline for today, or is it yesterday? A guy called Ivan in my prescriped elective class tried to 'tackle' aka woo me. Asked me if I stay in the hostel, which I replied no. Then tried to dig more by asking where I stay. When I told him, he said, 'Unfortunately I don't have a car, if not I can send you home. Such a pity.' PITY?! I think it's a blessing in disguise! I wanted to retort back at him, 'No car, no talk.' ^^v After that he didn't give up! He even gave me his hostel block no, room no. 'Feel free to drop by at my room k?' er!!!! HELLO!!! I'm not that STUPID! (although my boyfriend, Cheah Liang always say I'm. #!{$&!#%&!#%) He asked me where I'm heading to now that I'm done with my stuff. I said, 'HOME.' 'Oh. Well, I think I'll just hang around in the library then.' THANK GOODNESS! I said bye and flew out of the library. #_# Well, today I better return $0.30 to that Ivan for the notes which he helped me to order. I don't want to give him any hopes or hints. The notes cost $10.30. I didn't have $0.30 with me yesterday. He said I don't have to return the $0.30, just treat him to lunch. CRAZY! I said, 'I'm not in the same tutorial class as you.' BUT! He replied! 'Oh WE ARE!' HOLY SHIT!!! SOMEONE GET ME OUTTA HERE!!! To My Hubby Cheah Liang, I Miss You sooo badly. Couldn't stop thinking of you everyday. Even in school... I wish we can turn back time. Go back to the time where we're working. It was then we're able to meet everyday. But now... ~~~>.<~~~

You're the only one in my heart. Don't worry about the other competitors. They have no special place in my heart.

I Love You.

Your loving Wife

Oh man... I'm finally back home. The journey back home is always such a torture... Why is the stupid university located at the very west of singapore?!?!?! Stupid! Nothing much happened today. I was late for Material Science lecture today. HEY! It's not my fault! My aunt was supposed to come to my house, but she lost her way. So I'd to search the WHOLE area of my district to look for her. In the end I was late for lecture. I ran UPHILL to the lecture hall! GOD! Since when was the last time I exercised? *shakes head*

Hmm... Yeah, then I bumped into Alex. Oh yeah. Forgot to mention about Alex. I just knew him a day ago, which is yesterday? hahaha... We got to know each other as we're clarifying maths question with the maths lecturer, and he borrowed my tutorial. He's quite a nice guy. But he's taking Materials Engineering. He kinda reminds me of my friend, Jiamin. Wonder how's Jiamin doing now... Haven't heard from him for a long time. It's time to meet up with that guy.

Today I only attend 2 hours of school. 1 hour of Material Science lecture and another hour of Religion and Social Life tutorial. Ivan saw me before the tutorial started, and gave me my share of notes. I just thanked him, and went into the room. After that, I dug into my wallet to find the $0.30 to return him. He was so stunned and blur. Hahahaha... So much about the TREAT! =P I'm not gonna entangle myself with other problems except studies. I promised myself and made a pact with Szu Min and my Hubby that we (Szu Min and I) will concentrate on nothing else but the DEGREE itself. We're going to aim for accelerated Bachaleor in 3.5 years instead of 4! Then I'll be able to follow Cheah Liang over to Australia earlier. I'll do my best! Gambetta!

Yeah. Finally sat down and started a blog myself. Been procrastinating for countless months. A big apology to my friends out there who have to wait and grumble and whine about the long wait. LOOK! LATE BETTER THAN NEVER YA!? come on! appreciate my effort... puleeeussseee...